I Am There
Look for me when the tide is high,
And the gulls are wheeling overhead,
When the autumn wind sweeps the cloudy sky,
And one by one the leaves are shed.
Look for me when the trees are bare,
And the stars are bright in the frosty sky,
When the morning mist hangs on the air,
And shorter darker days pass by.
I am there, where the river flows,
And salmon leap to a silver moon,
Where the insects hum, and the tall grass grows,
And sunlight warms the afternoon.
I am there in the busy street,
I take your hand in the city square,
In the market place where the people meet,
In your quiet room - I am there.
I am the love you cannot see,
And all I ask is - look for me.
The Chubb Family
1st January 2016
The Choice
I chose my time, I chose my way,
I chose to stay, not another day.
Don’t hurt yourself, don’t wonder why,
I made my choice, my sweet goodbye.
Cry for me not, I have my peace,
Please respect my short-lived lease.
It wasn’t to punish, or cause great pain,
No upper hand, nor spiteful gain.
It was a thought, a mood, a chance,
Our worlds have changed, a circumstance.
For the tearful eyes I leave behind,
To make you suffer, was not in mind.
I am ever near, so remember me,
And the stupid stuff, that caused such glee.
Take all these thoughts, and give them space,
Banish bleaker ones: they have no place.
And because, I trust, you love me so,
You’ll understand, I had to go.
I’ll suffer not, I won’t grow older,
There’s nothing more for me to shoulder.
I didn’t explain, I made my choice,
And so this poem becomes my voice.
So pray for me, I pray for you,
I pray for strength, to carry you.
Because I chose my time, I chose my way,
I chose to stay, not another day.
Amen (or whatever you believe).
Jane Pallister
[This is one of a number of poems available on the SOBS (Survivors of Bereavement by Suicide) website, but it is the one which most profoundly moved us].
The Chubb Family
25th April 2014
Thank you for setting up this memorial to William Chubb.
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Sent by MuchLoved on 24/01/2014